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this is me now, not then. then was yesterday and today is better.

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forget pippas ass... how about james' instead?

so, who watched the royal wedding and thought that Kate's brother was/is a homoxual?

i'd credit the site where these pics came from, but i had them emailed to me by some filthy little whore and i'm definitely not going to credit him

before...

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after...

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so, james has a nice 'giant peach' after all!

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the ego vs the guard... which one is an issue?

for those of you that know me, i'm a pretty complex person, but deep down all i want is what everyone else wants and that's to be love and to be loved

tonight i've learnt (the hard way as usual) that the vibe that i'm giving off to people that i meet, isn't the best

yeah, i've been burnt, haven't we all? it seems to be a long time ago now, however i still seem to put 'the guard' up, sometimes without even noticing. it's like that thing that is in your throat that automatically flicks over when it's food coming down your gob and not air

believe it or not, i also get really shy when i meet someone i like, often giving off the vibe that i'm not interested, when in fact that it's totally the opposite. i also suck at making the first move (unless my blood is at least 42% vodka)

put that all together and clearly i'm fucked. hence the position i'm in with life at the moment

'the ego' that i have, isn't unlike the ego that we all have. i believe that everyone has an ego and it's not a bad thing, it's how you control that ego that is very important. i believe that i control mine well, i'm not big headed, i'm down to earth, not stuck up in any way, just a normal guy... so i *think*?

so which one is it causing all my drama? which one do i need to tame? which one needs a good kick in the balls? once this is decided, how do i do it? maybe i need to watch 'the man with 2 brains' again to see how transplants actually work...

too many questions *sips on vodka*

let's hope that all is not lost in my current situation, let's hope, like many of my friends, that someone whom i really like can finally crack the shell and get to know the real me...

i'll leave this blog with a quote from LAISE PASCAL. i have no idea who the hell that is, but he/she sure knows how to sum up all of the above in just a few words...

We must learn our limits. We are all something, but none of us are everything

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it's the gays fault...

whilst browsing the interwebs today, i stumbled across this link...

at first it made me laugh a lot, then i thought, hang on, some people actually BELIEVE this crap!

i spoke with your parents and they tell me that you are old and big enough to make your own mind up!

The 7 Craziest Things Ever Blamed on Homosexuals

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sneaky gays...

oh, i know far too many sneaky gays...

but then again, don't we all?

livin' lavida loca

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why is this still an issue...?

i'm so confused why in 2010 this is STILL an issue...

personally, i don't understand why anyone would want to get in the way of someone else's happiness. that is as simple as i see the issue of gay marriage. i don't want to get married now, but if someone else wants to and it will make them happy, then why the hell shouldn't they?

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are dog years the same as gay years...?

i was having this conversation with a foreigner friend of mine (she is from the UK, usually have trouble understanding her, but she is pretty, so i'll hang out with her, however, like usual... i digress) about gay relationships and the length of them

i told her how i went out with someone for a year, which is like 7 years in gay years... then it dawned on me...

are gay years the same as dog years?

gay boys usually do everything to the max, you could almost say that they do things to the power of 7:

* if they are going drag and need hair, it will be MASSIVE hair...
* if they are into an artist they will have EVERYTHING that they have sung, touched, looked at or even hated...
* if they are into a guy, the SECOND date is considered the engagement...

i know that i am making massive stereotypes here, i mean, i don't think i fit into those categories above. well at least i haven't done drag...

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ok, ok... that wasn't drag, that was cross dressing... one night only! my fake titties were a HUGE hit, especially with the ladies!

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where is my "+ 1"?

i'm such an independent person, don't get me wrong, but i have 'moments' where i would love to have a + 1

i'm not afraid to admit that i'm a hopeless romantic. i love cuddling on the couch, chilling out with someone, drinking cups of tea, walks together, talking endless amounts of crap and all those other typical 'warm & fuzzies' that come with finding a bond with someone special

i don't want to go on a rant about 'gay adelaide' but i really do find it a struggle in this town to meet like minded men. i've found that there seems to be a major void of decent men in this town who are around my age (give or take 5 years) and have some level of self respect, maturity and understand and respect monogamy. anyone whom may have possessed similar qualities like that seems to have moved interstate

the online dating thing continues to fuck with my head and my emotions. i don't know why i do it, but i figure that it wont really hurt... i know that i don't go out much, but i don't think that i'm going to meet anyone with a similar mindset in gouger street. if i did meet someone there, it would most likely be the result of me going in there for 20 minutes or so, finding the the uncomfortable guys standing on the edges of the dancefloor or beergarden and go up to them and say, "hi, i don't come here often... what about you?"... now there is a pick up line!

cliches irritate me at the best of time, usually because they are so true and people always use them to 'cap off' a conversation, almost as if to shut you up (with saying this, i do it all the time)... in almost every conversation where i approach the topic of my love life with mates, i keep getting told that 'good things come to those who wait' and 'you will find someone when you least expect it'... my immediate issue is that both of these relate to me having to be patient, which i am not. i'll need to get over that. however as alanis said 'you live, you learn!'

i'm not far away from yet another birthday, another 'event' that i assume i'll be spending solo... i'd love a + 1 to spoil me on my b'day, i've never had that before... i wonder what it's like? i can only imagine it would be nice?!

oh well, if i'm to follow or listen to that fucking 'secret' thing, then i should have a harem of husbands floating around me by now... i don't think i could be more open or positive to meeting new people and seeing what happens, but CLEARLY the universe doesn't think it's right for me now... what's up with that shit?

so, what is right for me right now?

i guess 'time will tell'...

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