aza says...

tonight i've learnt (the hard way as usual) that the vibe that i'm giving off to people that i meet, isn't the best

yeah, i've been burnt, haven't we all? it seems to be a long time ago now, however i still seem to put 'the guard' up, sometimes without even noticing. it's like that thing that is in your throat that automatically flicks over when it's food coming down your gob and not air

believe it or not, i also get really shy when i meet someone i like, often giving off the vibe that i'm not interested, when in fact that it's totally the opposite. i also suck at making the first move (unless my blood is at least 42% vodka)

put that all together and clearly i'm fucked. hence the position i'm in with life at the moment

'the ego' that i have, isn't unlike the ego that we all have. i believe that everyone has an ego and it's not a bad thing, it's how you control that ego that is very important. i believe that i control mine well, i'm not big headed, i'm down to earth, not stuck up in any way, just a normal guy... so i *think*?

so which one is it causing all my drama? which one do i need to tame? which one needs a good kick in the balls? once this is decided, how do i do it? maybe i need to watch 'the man with 2 brains' again to see how transplants actually work...

too many questions *sips on vodka*

let's hope that all is not lost in my current situation, let's hope, like many of my friends, that someone whom i really like can finally crack the shell and get to know the real me...

i'll leave this blog with a quote from LAISE PASCAL. i have no idea who the hell that is, but he/she sure knows how to sum up all of the above in just a few words...

We must learn our limits. We are all something, but none of us are everything